Before I begin, let me say that compared to the alternative, I would choose this life; however, I must be honest enough to say how much I hate my "new" existence. 8 out of 10 days, it seems that I have no noticeable problems. But, the 1 or 2 days when I do have problems: look out! The last couple days, for example, I have been ready for bed by 5:30. My wife does not get home from work until 5...so we have had exactly :30 of good time. After that I am not worth anything: I am tired, I am spacey, I am weak; to make it short, I feel sorry for Laura. I know that she just wants to spend time as a family, but I get tired so easily anymore. I know that I can do some things to prevent this feeling: I can just rest more during the day. Well, that is easier said than done. This morning, for example, I woke up at 4:00 and then could not get back to sleep. So, I just stayed up. When it came time to sleep, I just could not force myself to sleep. I wound up not getting to sleep until 4:oo p.m...and now here it is, 7:30, and I am ready for bed again! Please understand, I am extremely thankful for life and I really believe that I am better than I deserve; but, sometimes you just need to vent. Thanks for letting me vent a little!
For the last few weeks I have been experiencing some pretty terrible headaches; not the kind that you can relieve by rubbing your temples or taking Tylenol, but headaches that radiate from the back of my head. It seems as though I have tried several things to relieve them: taking naps, lying down on heating pads, taking Tylenol, turning the lights of, etc. but nothing seems to help. Now, I don't have them all the time, only a few days a week and I can tell that they are more from muscle tightness than anything else. I have been instructed to go the ER if they flare up again, because of my past history of headaches before my stroke, but most likely it is due to the muscles that were cut in the back of my head for the Craniotomy. I would say that most days I do not struggle with headaches at all; but, the days I do have headaches they are a doozy. I don't have blurred vision with them or sensitivity to light or sound; it just hurts. As I look back over the past 3+ years I realize...
From a fellow stroke survivor. It is good to vent sometimes share your problem with others that have the same problems, otherwise how are you going get help! Any way I had the same problem of always being tired and not being able to spend time with my new baby & other children. Tried everything on the market to give more energy, stamina and stop the depression. I am now happy to say that I found the right stuff to help, called E3live. Because I am from South Africa they won’t sell & ship the frozen E3live but I use the E3-AFA, Renew Me and the Enzymes and I don’t sleep at all during the day. Sometimes I go sleep at 10,11 or 12 at night :)and have plenty energy! I drink clean live water and eat healthy and exercise. I hope that my comments find you well and that you can also have more of a normal life!
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