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I am going to have to start blogging again...

I guess this is not a bad thing; I used to blog, nearly, everything that happened in my life, but lately I have been a little "slack" concerning how I feel. But, I need to have a "record" of everything, and, since this is how I used to do it, it just seems suitable to keep blogging more.

Well, I have felt pretty good for the last 6 months or so since I last blogged. There are some problems, though. I have noticed a trend: whenever I do not get a nap, I get real weakness in my left arm and left leg. The other day I had a REALLY bad day; some of it is because I did not get a nap, and some of it was because I am just prone to have bad days. This past weekend (October 1-3) I had some balance and "spacey" troubles. I seemed to stumble a little more than usual, and actually fell over (although it was into a chair, it was still a fall).

Some of the problems that I deal with on a regular basis: I still struggle with Aphasia (words just do not seem to come to me). I have learned how to "deal with it" by pausing a little between words and using phrases like "what is the best way to say this" (the reality is, I don't know the right words and I am trying to think of it). I also struggle with using the right words. Sometimes I will find myself saying that "this probably is not the right word...I guess a better word would be". I still have some problems swallowing; not that I cannot swallow, but it takes 2 or 3 attempts to swallow completely. I have a pulsating sound in my right ear. Initially I thought it was just my heartbeat, but it is not a regular pulsing; it is an irregular type sound. I often find that my left leg just gives out on me. I have only gone to the ground because of it once, but I do have to rely on something else to gain my balance. My blood pressure is all over the board; it is the worst of situations: if I do not exercise, I can control my blood pressure pretty well but my cholesterol gets out of whack. Since I only have one artery going to my brain I cannot allow my cholesterol to go high; however, when I do exercise a lot to lower my cholesterol, my blood pressure plummets (from 135/85 to 108/68 in just a few days). So, here is the question that I deal with every day: do I keep my BP up and play roulette with my cholesterol, or do I exercise to keep my cholesterol down and play roulette with my BP.

I really do FEEL good, but I just wanted to share what I deal with internally on a day to day basis.


  1. Haven't been on blogs for awhile. Thank you for sharing. It is nice to better know how to pray for you and your continued recovery. We love you guys!


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