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Friday I had my first funeral...

I know that it is a couple days after the funeral, but it was a really big event for me. Not the fact it was a funeral, but because it was my first funeral after my stroke. When you come to the realization of how close you came to death, no funeral is ever "mundane" again. Not that any funeral was mundane, but you approach funeral's differently.

I do think that it was a good funeral. The only difference, unnoticeable to everyone except me is the fact that I can no longer read ab obituary without using something to keep my place. I used to be able to keep my hands at my side and read most things, but now I lose my place pretty easily, so I have to use my finger to keep my place. I also noticed that I don't "think on my feet" as quickly as I used to. I used to do a funeral without any "seams". Now, I have to pause every now and then to think about what I am going to say next. Again, it is unnoticable to everyone except me, but it is different. Overall, it was a good experience and I am glad to have one more thing pretty close to normal.

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