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It is taking awhile...

It is taking awhile to get used to everything in my body being different than it used to be, but I am slowly getting used to it. My hands are the worst of it. I can't seem to get my hands to do what I want them to do. I can't write, I can't type. I guess I can a little, but I am not like I used to be. I used to type and write without thinking, but now I have to think about everyting I write and type.

I can't clap like I used to. I clap different from the way I did the rest of my life. I know, I know it is a little thing, but I can't do anything like I used to.  It is a big thing when you realize that everything in your life will be different. Whenever I have a headache, I have to ask myself if this is a normal headache, or am I having another stroke. Whenenver I have a simple cold I will never again be able to take over the counter medicine. I will have to go to a Dr. It is a small price to pay, but it is different from the first 38+ years. I  might talk normal again, but I might not talk normal. It is going to take awhile, but I will get used to this, too.


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