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I have found myself more emotional these days.

Today I let my youngest daughter, 7, go to a friend's house. I cannot believe that I let  my girl go. I NEVER let  my older kids go before they were 10 or so. I guess I am more emotional these days and I know how much these little ones mean to  me and how much more they must mean to God. 

I guess I just would say that these days I am an emotional bean bag...I go from one state to another quickly. The other night I was watchng "Elf" with my kids. I usually just laugh all the way through. The other night I found myself CRYING at the end. It was the part when they all are singing, and Santa was going through Central Park. I know it is just a movie, but I guess I, for the first time, came face to face with what my kids had to go through during THIS Christmas season. What a Christmas, going to see their dad in the Knoxville VA! But, to their credit, I never heard them complain. I only heard them grateful that I was close enough for them to see every day if they wanted to.

The nurse said when I got released that the part of my brain that was effected by the stroke has a lot to do with emotions. The cerebellum and the brain stem control how much emotions are affected daily. She said (though I have yet to experience this) that I might just start laughing or crying at odd times. Anyway, this is a new experience for me, so i thought I would write it down.

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